Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Music the unthinkable…

Well it has been some time since am feeling strange about myself and about what am feeling toward a clever beautiful lady which I have known through the yahoo chatting (I did not met her in real life till now), and I was asking myself about what I really want from her. About what can happen between me and her. What were my goals?. What was my motivation? Can it be real? Well…I tried to think as logical as I can…as real as it can be…I tried to resist my fantasies and I did that successfully especially these late days….and I quit my old habit of being online waiting for her o come online…(that was really a suffering)…anyway…I tried to forget about her for one week…it was nearly successful…

It was nearly successful….yeah….but….today….after the panoramic fast rotatory circulatory colored noisy morning of work in the psychiatric ward in the hospital with the exact number of clients that you need to be little drowsy and little eccentric as if you are yourself kind of a client (sometimes the word client is used instead of patient when you want not to label a person seeking the psychiatric help as a patient)…so…it was nearly successful till this afternoon when I felt like I have drunk a pint of bear …or make it 2 please….so…I was smiling with my self a second…not knowing why…then become little sad….with myself…and I don't know why again….seems to be some remnants of some parts of some stories I just heard this day in the morning… I went to the room of meetings in the ward...opened the computer…I got there a song of George Michael called "this is not real love" and this song was sent to me by that lady…who confused me a little….am writing now while the headphones are in my head stimulating my head from both sides…holding my head from my ears…and I think now am little….

What to say…this is something cannot put it in words….the song and that lady…well….

………

I bet this is love……

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Dr. Sami,

I hope it is love. tracy

Anonymous said...

Dear Dr. Sami,
I really enjoy reading your posts
Wish you all the best , i feel very proud when I know through the web site the real and genuine Iraqi like you and mam and her family BTW i found your blog you mentioned it at her blog,
I hope you will find the love of your live and to share the joy of this wonderful feeling with nice girl Maslawi one cus they good and smart women i am from baghdad but my grand mother from musel Allah er7amha my grand father lived a happy live with her and he loves mousel as much as he loved her ,

Regards

Take care

Big sister

saminkie said...

dear Big Sister, thank you for your advice, and for your care about my blog, and your encouragement, hope we keep in touch with each others...

take care