Friday, October 23, 2015

Within the Mind

Transforming your mind from the inside out
Overcoming fear that made you doubt
Observing what is stored in the subconscious
Trusting what you feel with your gut responses


My friend left Baghdad since about 10 years. He came back for a short visit. Not a very happy one, although we were happy to see each other. He visited his room which was left by his parents unchanged, and found all his old stuff including the tape cassettes. In the last days of his short visit he game me some the old cassettes and a recorder. He left. 
See past the dark and use your energy
Learn from these images
Thoughts that we call dreams

Yesternight I took the recorder and put it next to my head and chose a cassette of Motorhead, turned off the lights, clicked play, and shut my eyes but... but I not for a long time. I opened them soon.  

This power lies within the mind
Gain wisdom through abilities
Change what's to come in future time
Avoiding pain and misery



It wasn't Motorhead. It was Death. With that album that we adored once. I had 14 or 15, and that words were so emotional, the music so high, the strings were pulled to their highest tension, and my jeans were started to be torn. The teenager me was screaming.

Look through the fake from what is real
Making desicions by what you feel
Live for the future and not the past
The weak of mind will never last

I hear now again the same songs and contemplate what had appealed to me once. It is bizzare. To a degree. No so bizzare. It is understandable. I am from a poor family living in a poor country in the 90s. A teenager. Repressed. Depressed. What else but a electrical string, and a rusty voice that can symbolize the reality, back then. 
Perceiving visions that reoccur
Analyse your dreams to gain
A better perspective of your life
In control of your destiny with mind and soul

When I think now why I chose psychiatry as a career, it seems not that so bizzare, a decision. I liked to enter inside this suffering. I liked to see from the inside. I liked to analyse dreams, mines and others. Gaining a more internal locus of control.

See past the dark and use your energy
Learn from these images
Thoughts that we call dreams

Since yesterday and I am hearing this same album of Death. I like especially this song whose lyrics appear in this post in rosy italics. Named (Withing the Mind).  

This power lies within the mind
Gain wisdom through abilities
Change what's to come in future time
Avoiding pain and misery