am smoking now...i will go shut the door...wait...
the lady who asked me before tow days about how much i think her age is ignoring me in a passive aggressive way...she is in her 60s...i told her i thought she is in her 40s....isn't that good enough to let her be more nice to me...i think i need a mother figure these days...seeing older women more attractive...even the wrinkles around the eyes of the 50s women make me feel that i want a lady in 50s to talk to...to be her friend...
i thought that lady (she is in the ward taking care of her brother, the patient)...i thought it could be a friend to me...but today i think i was wrong....she is really ignoring my care...my eye contact...and....what to say...it is free associttion and i got to tell everything...i think i liked her.....but now am rethinking....after that cigarette...it was better not to get attached to her...oh god how much bizzar sometimes my mind goes...
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Oh, Dear Dr. Al Bedri,
i'm certianly old enough to be your "mom figure"...i must be 16 years your elder...i'll take the job...!
hearts, tracy
dear Tracy....I really already likke you.....and I was very happy to have your nice comments back....look...that lady is 68....older than me by 38 years....so regarding you tracy...if you like.. you can be my girlfriend...sorry to say this in public...but no body will read my silly associations but you...will you be my girlfriend???please????
Dear Dr. Al Bedri,
One of my biggest fantasies is to find for you a lovely, beautiful, kind and thoughtful young lady to be your girl friend...i wish i were that, unfortunately, i am not...my "alter ego, Dahmane" is...in fact, if you go to Dr. Gawande's site and see the picture where he is with some med students, my fantasy self is the young lady on the far left...she looks to be East Indian, i believe, i wish i were her....anyhow, of course, i will be your "blog girl", if you will have me...what a sweet compliment...!
hearts and hugs, t
you are welcomed...am grateful to you tacy...take care
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