free association (part???)

I got one hour daily of internet these days....and it is from 5 p.m. til 6p.m.....it comes after my afternoon rest...so...I came to the internet with a blank mind....a blank mind again....the internet service is in the ward...the psychiatric ward...so i must expect that a new patient or an old one may be there waiting for me to see him and hear him/her.....this is why i came with my blank mind....so that the client (if present) can write, draw, or anything he likes at the blank board of my mind....all i do at first is just wait and listen...wait and see...got to see what alll the writings and sounds and drawings of that client may mean.....in my mind....so.....evening is a period of no much talking to me....but when there is no patient like today....no patient want to talk....i came to my interent opoen window...from 5 to 6pm ...and navigate....in a sea...that may be blue....green..black....maybe rainy?.....sometimes it is the good time for having a cigarette at this time....raising my dopamine...and lowering my sensory gate threshold...getting more disconnected from sounds in the ward....client walk in a special way...one drag his feets...other walk fast with her high heels...so....let me take another cigarette and then continue....